I took some time off of reading blogs because I don’t have time with everything else I’ve been doing. I’ve tried to slow down on the posting, but I’ve found that I can’t let go of this outlet, even if I never post about anything too in-depth or interesting any more (or at least, not as often).
This has alleviated my stress somewhat, but there are still things going on that are just freakin’ my shit out. I’m busy, I’m stressed, and I’m still not sleeping well. This has just not been a good time for me.
Well, long story short, I went to the doctor about it today, because physically I’ve been feeling like I’ve been hit by a car. I know that it’s related to me not getting enough sleep while also being stressed, but I decided to be safe and just get checked out. So I went in, and my doctor referred me to a rheumatologist to get checked out for fibromyalgia.
I know what a lot of you are thinking, and trust me – I’ve thought it, too, many times: “Fibromyalgia? Seriously? That’s not even a real disease!”
And you’re right, it’s not. It’s a group of symptoms that happen to occur together frequently enough for them to attach a name to it, because they don’t really know what else to do with it. All you can basically do is try to get enough sleep, take anti-depressants, and get your ass up and moving to keep yourself from feeling too bogged down. You stop moving, and it gets harder and harder to become active again, and eventually you end up sitting around all the time because you have no energy to do anything, and it hurts to try.
I don’t really have much else to say about it. I know there are a lot of people who think it’s a crap diagnosis. I know there’s a perception that people who claim fibromyalgia just want pain pills. I also know that sleep could very well be all I need (as well as to get off my ass and exercise more and lose some damned weight). I’m just going to have to see what happens at my appointment.
So if you could, please refrain from leaving derogatory comments. I basically had to threaten myself with various dire consequences to get myself to the doctor…I’m already resisting this because of stigma. I’d appreciate it if y’all would check yourselves. You’re welcome to email me – I always accept emails. I just don’t want this to turn into a flame war.