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Trying to find the positive.

-My history professor? Is really an awesome human being. I basically had to embarrass the shit out of myself and potentially do more harm than good with an informational email about why my work has completely blown horse nuts this past month or so, and he answered the email in exactly the way I needed him to. That helped immensely. The only reason I bothered explaining things to him and not my other professors is because he’ll have me in a class next semester, as well, and the same issues will likely keep cropping up.

-Yes, the girls out in the hallway yelling and guffawing after I’ve asked them TWICE to be quiet are really irritating, but it’s another reminder of the house waiting for me, and the fact that I won’t have to deal with this next semester, or ever again. Bliss.

-My concert dress fits me perfectly everywhere except the arms, where it cuts off my circulation if I attempt to do anything but let my arms hang limply at my sides. So I took a seam ripper and destroyed the seam on the bottom of the sleeve (it’s just about a 1″ seam, so it won’t be noticeable to anyone else), and it seems to have helped at least a bit. Good thing, because I have to wear that thing for 2 hours tomorrow night.

-My sinus infection seems to be clearing up, albeit very slowly. Forgetting to take my Sudafed today turned out to be a horrible mistake, but I feel a bit better now, and I have Nyquil waiting for me on my desk. One swig and I’ll be good to go.

-I don’t have a ton of friends, so I feel lonely pretty often. BUT the friends I do have? Are pretty well the best friends I could hope for right now, and it’s worth being lonely for 10 hours if I get to spend 20 minutes talking to one of them.

-I do pretty fucking amazing makeup jobs, if I do say so myself.

Okay, I feel a bit better now. It’s been like ATTACK OF THE EMO the past couple of days. I think it’s because I just haven’t had a good cry in the past several weeks. I believe a good cry every couple of weeks is absolutely essential to my functioning or something, because when I don’t cry, even when I’m having a pretty good time, I feel an overload of “ick” that only goes away after the waterworks start. It’s so weird.

6 comments to Trying to find the positive.

  • CrankyProf

    “Attack of the EMO,” or “Attack of the EMU?”

    “Cause emu would be funnier.

    Hang in there.

  • Squeaky Wheel

    Yeah, “Attack of the Emu” would be pretty hysterical.

    Though, I’ve been attacked by an ostrich IRL. That wasn’t very funny to me, though my uncle found it funny enough to nearly wet himself.

    And thanks. I’m dealing. I’ve just kind of bottled things up for a few weeks, and it’s all coming out, so I just have to keep reminding myself that stuff is O-K. Heh. :-)

  • Yes, it is OK, Squeaky…you will be fine even if you don’t always FEEL fine.

    Plus, you have many friends online here in the blogosphere. Sure, that’s not the same as offline friends, but it helps.

    Hope you feel better soon.


  • Squeaky Wheel

    D. ML-M – Yes, it does help, you’re right. Mostly I just like having people to shoot the shit with, and there’s no shortage of them here. And like I said, the people I have around me IRL right now are more than enough – it just gets kind of weird sometimes when I want to speak to someone in person about something, and there’s no one there. *shrugs*


  • Wallow in it. Get it outta yer system, as they say. Then you can get back up and tilt at them windmills and slay those dragons!

    Don’t forget, you’re attending college at the same place where Jerry Pournelle went to High School!

    It’s a very good school, I believe. Dr. Jerry appears to think so.

  • Squeaky Wheel

    CBHS is actually a different institution in a different part of the city. CBU was originally CBC, and the order of Brothers who set up shop here were originally from St. Louis. They don’t really have a close affiliation with each other. They both are, however, good schools.

    I think I’m just having a hard time getting over this sinus infection, so I just feel really ick. Hopefully I’ll get over it soon. Thanks.